Weak heart.

Have you ever had one of those days where you just don't think you can "do" the day?


I have. Today.


After a splitting headache last night, I woke up anticipating that I would feel refreshed and renewed after a night of Tylenol PM-induced sleep. No such luck. Instead... my morning began with a painfully long wait in the Starbucks drive thru followed by one small irritant after another. 


I sat at my desk this morning, an emotional disaster. Wondering what in the world was my problem, I said to the walls  (who seemed to being ignoring me) "I can't do today. I'm just not strong enough and I don't even know why."


Great. Now what?


I looked up and saw my answer. (At least the desk wasn't ignoring me too) On my desk is my little verse-flip-doo-dad. Crazy as it is, it said this... 


2 Chronicles 6:9 "The eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him."


Totally convicting. I got the message loud and clear. My heart was weak. Guess whose fault that was?? Not God's. Nope. It was my fault. All mine. I hadn't committed myself fully to Him. Instead, I was looking around at everything else in my life, the issues, the noise. 


So, here's my re-boot effort for the day. Let's see if I can get it right this time. 

Taste test.

"Taste and see that the Lord is good." Psalm 34:8 

Is it really that easy? Just... taste? 

Some days that is a lot easier than others. What about the days when I see a loved one fighting through a disease? Or a child fighting through the pain of past abuse and abandonment? How do you see the Lord's goodness then? 

Taste and see. 

Taste what HE offers. See HIS face. Hear HIS voice above the noise that clamors around me. 

That's how. 

It's part of that "Be still and know that I am God" concept. I'm still working on that. When I get distracted by the crashing chaos around me and my heart begins to question the goodness of God, I do a taste test. 

Yep, a taste test.

I sneak away for some time with just my Jesus and test his goodness by tasting. I taste His word. His promises. His faithfulness. His power. One taste of all that and the test is complete. My wandering heart is reminded of His unfailing goodness. That's what gets me through another day... my daily bread. 

Hiding out.

Psalm 91:3-4

"For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from disease. He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection." 

There are days when you need the reassurance of a constant, strong shelter... the kind that can protect you from the winds that blow, the rains that pour and threaten your very existence. Then there are the days when you need the comfort of a safe place to land. I'm learning that in Christ, I have access to both. I'm hiding out today. He is a constant shelter. He is my safe place to land. I sing for joy under the shadow of His wings. Life is overwhelming. The demands on my mind, my heart, and my body are overwhelming. Where else could I turn? I think I'll just hide out.